A Personal Story

Submitted: Feb 2, 2001

Name: DAWN
Age: 22
Weight: 130
Height: 5' 5"
Pregnancy Test: Positive
Resolution: Clinical Abortion
Do you smoke tobacco? SOCIALLY

Were you using birth control? NO

What was the date of the first day of your last menstrual period? NOV. 25, 2000
Do you know the date of fertilizing intercourse? What was it? MOST LIKELY DEC. 9
What was the date you were expecting menstruation? DEC. 23
How long do your cycles usually run? 28 DAYS USUALLY
Do you cycle regularly or irregularly? REGULARLY

What was the date when the herbs were started? JAN. 20
For how many days were the herbs used (total)? 7
What was the date the pregnancy was terminated? FEB. 1

Please include a summary of dosage information.
VITAMIN C: capsules 500mg every hour for seven days
BLACK COHOSH: drops 30 drops every 4 hours for 3 days, every 2 hours for 2 days.
BLUE COHOSH: leaves 1 cup of tea every 4 hours for 2 day. (Then I switched to Dong Quai)
Dong Quai: capsules a capsule every 2 hours for 3 days.

Comments -
I really want to put the minds to ease of those women going into an abortion. I tried to find sites of women who had abortions and their experiences, but all I found was horrendous testimonies of dingy shacks and fact sheets from planned parenthood.

When I found out I was pregnant I was convinced I was going to keep it. However the more I talked to the (very unhelpful, unsupportive) father and my dad (equally unsupportive), the more I saw this child becoming a pawn in a terrible battle.....Dawn vs. The evil men in her life......so I realized I wasn't as mature as I had thought. By this time I was six weeks pregnant (from time of fertilization). I had looked at herbal abortion before and decided this was my best alternative.

I began by taking 500mg of vitamin c every hour. The next day I started taking black and blue cohosh every 4 hours, along with two hot baths a day where I talked to my baby and did some of the visualization techniques. I want to add here that talking to my baby is one of the most theraputic things I did. From the moment I concieved I knew I was pregnant and knew her name. I called her by it, explained my situation to her. Asked her to forgive me. I told her of friends I knew that wanted a baby and could take wonderful care of her. I talked to her a lot and it helped me vocalize a lot of my intentions and helped me deal with the process as it was happening, instead of letting it build up and snowball over me later on.

Anyway, back to it....I read the success stories of others who used herbs and found most of them used dong quai, so I substituted the blue cohosh after two days. After a couple days I start to get a bit desperate, so I upped my doses to every two hours, with vitamin c every hour. On day six my kidneys started hurting, so I tapered off all the herbs and quit completely the next day.

Around the fifth day, when I was convinced I was too far along for the herbs to be effective, I scheduled an abortion. I was scared to death of it, but I had to do it, now I had taken too many herbs to continue the pregnancy. The abortion clinic I went to was phenomenal, it was National Health Care, through the National Abortion Federation....their web site is very good..www.prochoice.org....I suggest anyone with questions check it out.

I went in and was greeted by wonderful nurses, counselors and doctors, all of which had abortions, or had daughters who had abortions. They were wonderful. I had a finger stick, a sonogram (which thank God, was pointed away from me so I didn't have to see it), and then counseling. She answered all my questions, was very supportive, we talked about my future goals, and I think most important of anything she gave me a huge hug. By this time any of my anxiety was gone. Next I was sent to a room to receive meds and get my blood pressure taken. It was a room with about six other women in it. We had about 45 minutes in there. We bonded, told our stories, became a great support group for each other, a nurse was in there answering questions and laughing with us....there was a lot of laughing and a lot of smiles. We were give a pain killer and Valium, after that we were all feeling pretty good!

Then it was time to go in for the surgery. A nurse sat beside me the entire time, holding my hand, comforting me. The doctor was great, I had a few not so pleasant sticks, then they gave me a shot so I wouldn't remember the procedure (which takes about 3 minutes). The next thing I knew I was in a recliner under a blanket with a pepsi in my hand and an ice pack on my belly. I don't know what was in that shot, but I was the happiest person on earth for about 16 hours. The nurse escorted me out to my ex's car (where he was asleep), laughing and smiling, she gave me a hug and I thanked her. That day I had very slight cramps, and overall felt very well. I know that was the best decision I could have made and I was very impressed with the loving, caring staff. So far I have no regrets, no nightmares, but a wonderful peace of mind.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope it eases the minds of anyone going in for an abortion.

Is there anything you would have done differently? I would go straight into the clinical abortion. Had I decided earlier I was going to end my pregnancy I would have stuck longer with the herbs under the counsel of an herbalist instead of the guess and test method.

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